I Dont Like to be Told

I don’t like bossy person.a person who like to told:don’t do this,don’t do that.maybe this is my weakness,maybe because im the only child,im not used to be told don’t do this,don’t do that,because im also doesn’t like to give order to other people unless it just like im asking help.I don’t like to bother other people life,,life is so simple,flexible,sometimes it doesn’t need any rules,,just let it flow-lah,,I don’t bother you,so please don’t bother me..

I Want to buy Shoes

I want to buy shoes tomorrow

I will go to ITC Cempaka Mas

Theres a lot of shoes options there

Already like the colour and model

Hope I can go with my mom

I want to buy pink,white,blue & green shoes

So i can match with my office clothes.

I Want Kobe Lamptei..

Its already my habits.

Everyday,at this time.

Just before i went home,

I started to imagine what i want to eat for dinner.

It can be i buy at the mall or just have dinner at home.

It brings happiness too.

Food make me happy.:)

Right now i want kobe lamptei.

I haven't try it.

Its japanesse udon restaurant.

I heard there are 20% discount there.

I dont know jadi pa ga ntar.Bcoz besok baru gajian kn.

Kobe..wait for me ya..

I Still Have A Dream..

I Have a dream..

a song to sing..

hehe.suddenly i sang that westlife song when i wrote this blog.

i know,maybe some of you already bored bout my complaints,wishes,and my dream.

but,

huhh...

i want to quit my job.

again?? :)

i hear it from my heart..

i heard that this is not the way that i really want in my life..

i like freedom..

it felt like when i see the cloud in the blue sky in the afternoon..

no one tell me what i have to do.

i am the one who tell me what i want to do and have to do.

i know i not suitable for in an office job.

too many rule

too many drama

too many seniority & envyness..

am i that pretty & talented?:)

i want to be business owner..

doing what i really like

in time that i want..

just like my prince told me,"find what you like in your life and enjoy it."

actually i felt shame.

in my age,i still dont do a job that i really desire.

im confuse what i have to do in this short term ahead.

i think i must quit.

find another job that have a less pressure (of course better bos)

so i have a less burden in my office job while doing my business..

i still doing a little business there & business here.

i already doesnt put lot of hope and antuism after my surgery 2 weeks a go.

i guess bcoz i just understand health & happiness from family is the most important after all things i've been through.

i still have little bit hopes and plan.

but little..

just want to see what happen next..

i cannot handle with this 2 problems in my life.

i hope just like most people say,"after rain,theres come rainbow."

amen..

I Dreaming Again Bout You..

my prince..

i miss u..

i dreaming bout u again this morning.only 15 minutes before i get up.

but it means a lot to me

this time u come back.

is it a sign?

in my dream i hug u really tight.

i say,"finally we met after 4 years."

i kiss your chick,i hug u really tight.really felt your chick and your shirt.

you wearing a yellow-green plaid shirt.i dont remember if you really have it or not.i think i ever see you wearing that in campus.

your chick is white,blushing and warm..

i still remember the softness and the warmness..

i hope it will come true..

please come back soon..

miss u..

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Headache..

Hi blogs..

My head is aching.

I dont know is it bcoz im sleeping with air conditioner just blowing to my head.:P

I know is wrong,but regularly i got cold.not headache.

Or bcoz i got sweating this morning bcoz i take ojek to office.:(

I didnt bring peppermint oil.If i bring it i just use it to my head.

And i dont have paramex.

I already drink panadol.

Hope i get well soon.

The Truth About Him

Hey Guys..

I already decided want to write bout him

All the mean things that he did to me

First i just want to publish it at my new facebook

But im only can open my blog at my office

So..

This is it:

1.I love him (from the first time) its all because he using black magic.YES.PELET.I just know it between this January or February from my moms neighbour at Sukabumi.

2.He insist to put my relationship status in facebook with him and my profile picture with him so another man or boy cannot be close to me.He got angry lately just because i put a plane picture for God sake in my profile picture.

3.He like to curse and abuse me with his words on the phone,while we fight,at the phone or at sms.He like to abuse me with not appropriate word and "must be sensored word."

4.He like to mocking my parents too.Ok,maybe he is hurt because my mom and my dad ever said something hurt him.But for God sake is my parents.

5.Almost everytime he go to my house or we go out he always came home very late.At my office day he always go home at 11 pm.I dont have time to take a bath,to tidy up my room or do my another part time job.

6.He ever ask my facebook password also asking my yahoo messenger password but thank God for yahoo i didnt give it,but eventually i give my facebook password and he read all my message,remove almost all my friend who are a male.

7.He not allowed me on Saturday or Sunday go with my friend.I already miss a few of my friends wedding,friends reunion,even i didnt talk to much again with my friends.The most event i regret is my friends wedding at Marriot.I really want to go but because of him i dont go.

8.I lost the one who i really love and supposed to be with.

9.He like to "morotin" my money.YES.He is a golddigger.And this thing also i know from my moms neighbour that can "see".Yes.he only pay for a few months first when me & him get together.After that,he like to use my money to treat him eat,buying him clothes,call him,thanks God lately i use XL to call him,before it,i use my Indosat number for God sake to call him and that also he is the one who always ask it.How fool i am.

10.He have another girlfriend

and boyfriend..

11.He like to make me angry and jealous with his story that he have a rich girl-friend that chasing him.

12.Before,i scream & hurt myself everytime we fight.Really screaming i mean until all my neighbour know.Silly..how silly i am.

13.He once ever chocked my neck in the caps.

14.He like to check my handphone to see if i still communicate with my ex or with my guy-friend.The silly thing is he is jealous to all guy who communicate with me.

15.he already make me experience between life & death.
i have a surgery for God sake beacuse of him

16.He doesnt care.even after surgery he insist want to visit me.i already said that i have to take a bed rest.i cannot go down stairs.he not allowed to go to my room.so i have to go down stairs for God sake.

17.The day after surgery he visit me.i still have to go up & down to give him meal,drink,etc.

18.He talk about God but but he want to go home he still doing the same thing.

19.He is a psychopat.Now i really realized it.

20.He is crazy.

21.I dont know is it because Pak Ustad prayer,or because of the surgery,or because im already want to be 26.I realized i have to leave him.No more love,no more careness.This is bout me.my safety.My life.I want to find my true soulmate.My true husband,who already waiting out there..who supposed to be with me..