Selasa, 24 Mei 2011

The Truth About Him


Hey Guys..

I already decided want to write bout him

All the mean things that he did to me

First i just want to publish it at my new facebook

But im only can open my blog at my office

So..

This is it:

1.I love him (from the first time) its all because he using black magic.YES.PELET.I just know it between this January or February from my moms neighbour at Sukabumi.

2.He insist to put my relationship status in facebook with him and my profile picture with him so another man or boy cannot be close to me.He got angry lately just because i put a plane picture for God sake in my profile picture.

3.He like to curse and abuse me with his words on the phone,while we fight,at the phone or at sms.He like to abuse me with not appropriate word and "must be sensored word."

4.He like to mocking my parents too.Ok,maybe he is hurt because my mom and my dad ever said something hurt him.But for God sake is my parents.

5.Almost everytime he go to my house or we go out he always came home very late.At my office day he always go home at 11 pm.I dont have time to take a bath,to tidy up my room or do my another part time job.

6.He ever ask my facebook password also asking my yahoo messenger password but thank God for yahoo i didnt give it,but eventually i give my facebook password and he read all my message,remove almost all my friend who are a male.

7.He not allowed me on Saturday or Sunday go with my friend.I already miss a few of my friends wedding,friends reunion,even i didnt talk to much again with my friends.The most event i regret is my friends wedding at Marriot.I really want to go but because of him i dont go.

8.I lost the one who i really love and supposed to be with.

9.He like to "morotin" my money.YES.He is a golddigger.And this thing also i know from my moms neighbour that can "see".Yes.he only pay for a few months first when me & him get together.After that,he like to use my money to treat him eat,buying him clothes,call him,thanks God lately i use XL to call him,before it,i use my Indosat number for God sake to call him and that also he is the one who always ask it.How fool i am.

10.He have another girlfriend

and boyfriend..

11.He like to make me angry and jealous with his story that he have a rich girl-friend that chasing him.

12.Before,i scream & hurt myself everytime we fight.Really screaming i mean until all my neighbour know.Silly..how silly i am.

13.He once ever chocked my neck in the caps.

14.He like to check my handphone to see if i still communicate with my ex or with my guy-friend.The silly thing is he is jealous to all guy who communicate with me.

15.he already make me experience between life & death.
i have a surgery for God sake beacuse of him

16.He doesnt care.even after surgery he insist want to visit me.i already said that i have to take a bed rest.i cannot go down stairs.he not allowed to go to my room.so i have to go down stairs for God sake.

17.The day after surgery he visit me.i still have to go up & down to give him meal,drink,etc.

18.He talk about God but but he want to go home he still doing the same thing.

19.He is a psychopat.Now i really realized it.

20.He is crazy.

21.I dont know is it because Pak Ustad prayer,or because of the surgery,or because im already want to be 26.I realized i have to leave him.No more love,no more careness.This is bout me.my safety.My life.I want to find my true soulmate.My true husband,who already waiting out there..who supposed to be with me..

Senin, 23 Mei 2011

Miss u my Prince


no one ever know..that im still thingking about him..still searching for him..still remember about him..still dreaming about him..especially when i read his words that really..it answered all my problems..all my circumstances..all my doubt and depression..he said that life is something that you must enjoyed..it completely shocking me..but it get so deep and calm deep into the deepest my heart and soul..ditengah-tengah kegalauan dan kehectican myself blkgn ini..ditengah-tengah sepertinya semua org sprt memaksa dan mem-push smua capability yg aku punya..he just simply said that words...

my Prince..i have a confession..i still dreaming about you..

i still dreaming about you when i sleep..
and i confuse,because in my dream your presence it seems like waiting and bring peacefullness even when i woke up..

are you calling me?
are you waiting for me..

thank you for guiding me even from far..

sorry now i have to make distance from you
because im scared.
but i hope i can get to you someday..
i will contact you and meet you.
do you want to meet me?
just like what u said.

are u the one?
just like my feeling when the first time i saw you?
is God hold you for me?

because.hehe.so many people said that we look alike.
my Prince..i need you
i need you to guide me.
from so many people in this world,i know is only you that can guide me.

my Prince..
how are you?

miss u..